hediyeye tavallod, badmasti ya harche ke esmash ra mishavad gozasht

salaaam,
dirooz o emrooz o farda gozasht.
va tavallod.
Adam vaghe'an nemidanad ke khod ra farib midahad ya enghadr shifte ast ke marzha ro mishekanad.
man ra in goone benegar:
piroozi ba'd az shekast.
tavallod pas az marg.
va in zood margio zood no zayi hazineyi darad. hazineash hedieye tavallodist ke zudtar az mo'ed migiri!
midani chand marde hallajam? chand marde hallajim?
hallajieman ra bayad ba chi besanjim ke beshavad?
midani be che kar miayad in sine zadanhaye moharram o araghkhorihao velgardihaye shabane dar kuchehaye Toronto?
be in ke hame ra harche ta'assobe bihodeye koor hast berizi o dobare zade shavi.
dobare zade shodan ra be hich nemiforusham agar rokh dahad.
na madrak e Masters o Phd! na poolo supervisore adam! na doosthaye khoob! na pedar shodan! na halgheye angoshtari ke to an shab dastam khahi kard! na hich nafasi ke foru miravado an ke bar miayad!
hame o hame momedde hayatand o mofarrehe zat faghat!!!
palidiam ra bebakhsh!
shanideyi ke migooyand botkhaneye chin? yek hamchin chizi!!
ghesseash mofassal ast o majal nist! hamin ra begooyam ke shabi inja ma ra ooftado haz ha bordim. sa@i ba'd hesse ma'mule gonahast. o saati ba'd eshghe be delbandat!
ey vaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay agar bedani ke che keshdarast in 'a' vaghti be in sa'a't resideyim!
doostat daram sahl ast. o yek lahze'ash, aanash, khatereyist ke havar mishavad. migzarad.
ya rabbi! to gofti ke mara be khatere ghasamhayi ke khordam o bihode boode azabi nemidahim!
to khod gofti ke mara be khatere ahmagh boodan mojazat nemikoni.
mara be in donya ferestadeyi? ke hame be in khater azabam midahand? pedaram magar che khord?!
khodavanda! maraa be miane mardomani ferestadeyi ke lokht migardando fakhr miforushand? ba kerevathaye shik? mara past kon! tarahhomam bede! bekoshan be marge tabi'ei! chon sagi ke shabhengam dar zire charkhe yek ranadeyi, goosheyi, pas az hamin badmastihaye moshabehi, tabdil be gand migardad. amma eshgham ra lezzate vafer becheshan! zarreyi oo ra moghabele sagihaye donyayeshan nagozar! hayelam kon in jasade gooshtie ofoonat zade ra ta dar moghabele yazidane zamane
rast beyistad o mard tar az ensan kasifi ra besuzanad!
AAAmmin!
Tayaz